For once let me mumble for a moment...

I don't care how hard I try to erase you from my mind, these typical feelings always formed in no distance and suddenly masterminding. I can't resist your appearances, your texts, your tweets, every single thing that relates...

Everyday I pray "Dear God, give me a single answer, either is forget or to wait" but He hasn't shown the concrete yet; only a puzzle I need to arrange but further more I'm crawling in the hole of hopeless I dig myself. Sometimes I assure myself to forget you; but there's a time where I become so fragile and broken when the stream of memories strike back. That moment when a light approaches and tell me how to wait for the day that you will bring me back into the surface.

People say I have forgotten the hollow in my heart but the fact is I only pretend to be okay, damn I hate when I know how pretty I lie. Why couldn't I lie to myself? So everything is gonna be okay and you are nothing but the past. I can't.