Forget about the massive celebration before marriage, this girl prefers to be the bachelor with title on her name! I have graduated from psychology this year, and while the struggle was real, I put this on my 10th because I think I deserve it. I have guessed (and prepared) myself to graduate at the punctual time, and that makes me proud. Hell yeah, but I would rather say the next big thing would be...

Alhamdulillah, never would I ever thought that I would have an actual job right after graduation. In fact, I have an actual job before I even started my thesis. Coincidence? Fortuna puts her kindness over me along with embarrassing efforts I have given, of course. I remembered the first time I proposed my application to Riliv was like "DUDE I CAN WRITE, I CAN TAKE PHOTOS, PLEASE HIRE ME I'M SO DESPERATELY NEED JOB."

And it seemed either they put pity on me or enthusiastically hired me for good reason, I have managed to develop and channel my ability on the proper place.

While it sounds like I'm the host of ICP-HESOS (Bi-annually international psychology conference), I was given the chance to present my paper in the event. Such a godsend for me because I never expected my thesis was considered adequate to be tied with the other more favorable scientific papers, let alone passed the quality control. But the most heartwarming reason is because being part of international conference is long-dreamed by my Dear, so I took my part as a representative of his aspiration.

Have you ever woke up from a long slumber and you suddenly realized, "Hey, I've been sleeping for ages!" with your hands on the hips. More or less is the portrait of me looking at how deserted my blog has become. Whenever I tried to write something, the idea was running around and "Catch me if you caaaan!" and I was too lazy because I have another thing to do on my job.

While on the other hand, my job is strongly related to blogging so there was a point I wondered "How do I keep writing and managing contents on the other website with tight deadlines, while I cannot do the same thing with very non-restrictive construct and schedule? So expect some good contents from me, hey Reader!

The opportunities given to me to learn more about startup were unexpectedly HIGH! Riliv provides me a whole bunch of good mentors (from digital marketing to content writing), getting know mutual companies' employees and employers, being part of DIGITARAYA POWERED BY GOOGLE LAUNCHPAD and learned a lot about how being a manager or good head of content.

Nobody in startup industries hates questions or innovations. Hence, I threw a lot of questions related to startups and looking back at myself 1 year ago -- how knowledge fills the glass only for a year! Next step would be preparing the bigger glass to fill more knowledge in me.

As a "Get into the bed, Shinji!" person, I'm grateful I can be on my healthy state this year. No serious illness, and I can feel myself also getting vital. Not only I jog or walk every morning, but I also happened to be gym member for two months and guess what? I'm getting mentally happier, too!

This year also taught me how to be more assertive and learned more about leadership from my co-founder. There are several things I could not learn from the university and workplace behavior has its own way to shape myself into better person. I used to say "yes" almost on everything. But I learned that being productive is how to say no to not important things. Furthermore, I can also express my disagreement or strong opinion about certain things I do not favor. These things that I used to avoid, turns out to be good fortune for my career.

Cliché, but truly it is a blessing. I was actually planned to have my graduation on July, but somehow things delayed the celebration so it was postponed into September. While surprisingly, on September I'm already with my Dear and it feels so good to be able to celebrate such big thing with someone you dear so much. A blessing or coincidence? Why not both ;)

While I've been well-known on the internet and some of them consider me as internet-sister, nothing could beat my happiness when I know I have real sister now. Last month I have given the blessing to offer birthday present for my Dear's little sister. As an only child in my family, of course it feels... new. I admit, I have considered several people in my life as sisters, but nothing more terrifying than presenting a gift for real sister I barely know! What if she hates it? What if she does not want the thing I give? But fortunately, Dear said his sister loves the present so it becomes one of truly bliss for me.

Really, really looking forward to be her sister one day.

This is the biggest decision in my life. After the hard and cold relationship -- also at the stage where I considered myself as an asexual due to lack of passion on my previous -- I decided to break up, and discovering where to put my heart at. He is the harbour; a perfect place to spend the evening. The sword of my shield. How funny the love between us just... came. I was crying, afraid that this was something terrible or maybe could bring a disaster of my future. But it turns out to be the best decision I have ever made. I take the risk of being able with him, to be his love of his life, and spend the life together with him. He helped me getting through my anxiety, and deeply cares about my future. Together, I hope, we will be able to tackle anything that comes through. Alhamdulillah...

Not going to be melancholy, but we can end the moment the way we want it to be perceived. Do you think 2018 is bad? You don't have to end it with guilt, either. Find the niche between the clandestine, sure you will meet the light coming through. Hey, let's live for another year. You have survived several years, why can't you today? Happy being grateful, Readers!